Grace of Beginnings

Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life’s desire.

John O’Donohue
To Bless the Space Between Us

Photo by  Filip Kominik  on  Unsplash

I’ve been here before, this liminal space where endings and beginnings meet at the threshold. Each new beginning follows a spiral of learning, every trial and shift moves me closer towards what I do and don’t want. It is an uncomfortable place to reside, this in-between. I tend to feel some pressure to figure things out, to have a clear sense of direction, to know where I am going. But this time, I simply want to release what isn’t working and turn towards the things that are calling for my attention. Writing. Photography. Mindful creativity, which feels like making art simply for the joy of creating. More time making. Less time hustling. More time living and connecting. Less time posting and scrolling. More exploration, less limitations.

Though I don’t set New Year’s resolutions, I do believe in the power of intention and appreciate the spaciousness of renewing or revising how I want to feel in my life. I like to revisit how things are going with each seasonal shift. And with each new calendar year, I like to claim a word or few that capture a larger picture of my heart’s desire. Coming into this year, I sense a strong need for LIBERATION. From unraveling narratives and outdated patterns. From a loud inner critic and untamed fear. From feeling slogged down by comparison and self-doubt. From internal pressure to perform and “succeed”.

This year, I want to feel emboldened in my inner life, to feel courageously confident and fortified in the choices I make. I want to create from a place of joy and curiosity, to allow wonder to guide my creative process. I want to feel vitalized and nourished by my work, the work of paying attention and loving the world. The work of foraging the seasons for small moments of flourishing. The work of reminding myself and others why it matters that we slow down, pause and attend to the natural world.

I am going to try not to make bold declarations about what I will and will not be doing. Instead, I will say that I am shifting my creative direction. I have taken down my little online shop of printed work in favor of a single project that is calling for my attention. It is a year-long project that aligns with the intentions of my heart and I want to feel spacious in the process of creating it. I’ll be sharing about it soon. Also, in the spirit of new beginnings and liberation, I cleared out my Instagram photos and for now, I’m uncertain how I will or will not be engaging in that space. But I wanted a blank canvas, the opportunity to reframe my creative direction as it becomes clear. And I am trusting in the words of the late John O’Donohue and unfurling myself into the grace of beginning that is at one with my life’s desire, trusting that this opening will lead me towards another and through another, one threshold at a time.